I don't feel good about everything right now. Things don't seem to be under anyone's control. It's like it's at the edge of a cliff waiting to be pulled back or pushed to fall down. Most of the time, I feel like I'm responsible for putting things at risk. I don't want to aknowledge my fault but I know deep inside that I blame myself for it. I cannot, atleast not think about the situation. I know that for now, there is very little thing I can do if ever there is, but I have to try just to make myself feel better. I know that if I just let things happen without doing anything I will feel a lot more sorry for myself.

         I don't want to be a loser. I'll fight till there is nothing to fight for.  There ain't no time for regrets and hesitations. I can't be cynical, pessimistic, and sarcastic at the same time. I am not worthless unless I think I am. For now, I can only wait to see who and what are there to work with. I know it is not my fight alone. A lot of concerned people are there with the same amount of passion and determination just to make things right again. Who ever thought that the sole responsibility is hers is damn stupid. Hell… I have a lot more in my heart but I'd rather keep it than make things complicated.

         I choose my fights and if I have to be involved with one again… I'll make sure it's not me who's gonna cry. I can be evil too when the situation asks for it.